i'm sorry giant.

i want this cute creature :)

dawn

i'm finally home. err it was 2days ago. lol. baru sekarang dapat berukband nya dong.-.-' anyway. boring. memang perkataan itu akan di ulang-ulang berkuatkuasa 2hari yang lalu sampai bulan 5 tahun depan. hope that papa bagi gua kerja ? err nahh, he won't let me unless if i go work with him. -.- tapi heh, aku bukan nak kerja sangat pun. yang aku nak sekarang, dad's permission to get car license. puhliss lah boleh dad ? i'm not a lil girl lagi. tak lama lagi nak degree dah. pleeeaseee ? janji xkan nakal2 and banyakmerayau. sikit ja okay xD

i'm officially ends my part as pre-law student in merbokland :') sedih, gembira, mixed feelings.frankly speaking, lebih banyak rasa sedih dari gembira. no more the girlfriends :( rindu mereka. all memories that created there, new experiences, i will never forget. the land, the peoples sangat sangat lah baik. well, eventhough merbok mmg panas and kdg2 berbau 'harun'. haha. yup, no more the merbok's environment :( and the most thing that aku sangat sangat sedih, my last paper , lawIII was so sucked. literally sucked.our law lecturer cik sal yang jaga kami time tuh pun buka ja paper, mengeleng. satu pun tak da dalam spot! yang mmg hampir semua budak2 nih mlm semalam tu study dari spot topics. betul lah kata2 senior sem lalu, law III memang killer no 1 budak law. our akak president pun sampai menangis after jawab paper tuh.even masa our turn, mmg ada yang nangis termasuk aku lah, tapi aku still control g. ya Allah, i'm so scared. macam mana kalau aku tak dapat lepas ? hancus lah semua harapan :( hmm, all i can do now is praying. bila di fikirkan, ni saja pun macam nak mati, layak ka aku untuk degree in law? mampu kah aku ? betulkah jodoh aku ngn law akan terus licin ? sekarang aku berharap kesudahannya akan baik baik saja. sangat sayang , sangat kalau aku xlepas. sebab hanya itu saja, satu tuh saja lagi halangan yang harus aku lalui untuk ke degree law.hmm, no matter what , usaha dulu baru lah serah pada takdir kan? insyaallah, semua okay. really hope that i can go to shah alam next year, with my fellow girlfriends, fulfill our dreams untuk tinggal sama-sama, merayau bersama-sama, busy study bersama-sama. almost everyday, we've planned our life if we go to shah alam :') insyaallah walaupun kadang2 mimpi kami tersangat lah tinggi tapi tidak mustahil we will make it happen. i'm blessed, i know , and i know sometime i go astray, hmm manusia biasa lah. i just hope that i dont let my parents down. hanya itu, at least. *praying*

if i'm not mistaken, today hari last syawal. selamat hari raya buat yang terakhir kalinya untuk tahun ini. xD

scared to death

selamat pagi semua.

 aku bangun2 ja terus keluar bilik degan rambut kusut, muka taktau nak describe macam mana, turun ke bawah. saja nak jalan2, round2 area yang berdekatan la tapi. tak pernah di buat sejak mai merbok nih. haha. hmm,maybe because  tomorrow is the day people!  my final. my only chance. i'm scared. i do,  sebab i am not doing my very best on my last sem there. menyesal? takda masa. padan muka kau. sesungguhnya aku tau , aku boleh.jangan terlalu nervous. jangan terlalu panik. remember, relax, doa, macam nebloga said sem1 and 2 boleh tak kan sem ni xbole ? just now i was texting with my mom and dad. dad was in kl now. huhe. meeting lah tapi. mom kat rumah eh egensi zhulian kot. haha. i cried while texting with them tadi. with all the kata2 semangat and i the memory on the day that they sent me here, all the kesusahan , kena tipu, mau cari bilik en zul kami ulang-alik2 bangunan2 tu semua bukannya dekat. my dad and mom dgn beg, aku sumpah mau menangis masa tuh tengok dorang sabar ja walaupun asyik2 tanya orang d sekeliling salah ja direction, yang ntah lah saja mempermainkan atau salah kami. sudah lah panas masa tu. nasib baik abg senior botak and pakai spek tapi hensem tolong kami. betul2 tolong. we love you lah. heh. anyway, aku sebenaqnya nak tulis pendek ja, macam pnjang pulak dah ni. okay lah. saja nak coret2 . a reminder for me bila aku tengok2 balik post nih, masa aku tgh bergelar pelajar degree in law di shah alam :) insyaAllah. ya Allah permudahkan lah jln hamba mu untuk medapat result yang mampu melayakkan aku ke sana.amin.

p/s: mama and papa , i love you. 

dugaan. ya Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan.focus.tinggal ini saja lagi.hanya ini peluang aku to catch my dream. harapan ibu bapa. i'm so messed up right now, but must remember my final just in 2 days lagi.

its been ages gua tak main2 hujan. haha. but now, i feels like wanna to dance in the rain. maybe gua boleh kembali segar and release my stress ? hmm, feels so empty. loser. 

tonight , global and law please lah bagi aku nmpk kau menggoda sikit eh banyak.

so aku bernafsu gak nak menghadap kau. haha. toodles!

random.

good morning earth :)

wake up in the morning, and counting days that left here in Merbokland and ended with emotional feeling-.-  i will definitely be missing this place. especially those people yang gua menghadap hari2, PL3D. haha. i love you guys. each every one of you.hope that we could meet again in a better situation of course.saya harap each every one of you turned out to be those who successful out there. its almost a year and a half we've been together and i'll will not forget korang semua. thank you for everything my friends. thank you because you guys want to be friend with me. thank you my three beautiful girlfriends. for all the love, sincerity, laugh, help, advice, supports and semua nya lah :') and yeah, thank you sam. for everything and even  though we end up like this :) anyways, i wish you guys , all the pre lawrians good luck and all the best for the final. hope that takda seorang pun akan me-repeat. insyaallah :) semua akan ke shah alam lah ye ? :')
 

i heart them :)

9 September ;)

assalamualaikum muggles.

retro raya youolls. mak tak ikut pun tema.sory lah nokk.

as like what i've said eh wrote on the previous entry, the pictures of pre lawrians dinner ! :D
:o can't believe just like not more than 2 weeks my course will be officially end. the finals just around the corner people*glup :/ and i haven't start studying. bagus peragai. hmm, anyway, nahh the pictures. tapi xbanyak pun, lagipun saya rasa i'm not having much much fun because of putri and fna didn't came :/ mood jatuh sikit lah and maybe because i was too tired kot on  that day .bersiap pun lambat,bas uitm yang nak bawa kiteorg pergi park avenue lagi sejam mai ambik. so mmg tak lah nak dapat look mcm diva ye dok.haha nahh, my bad -.- siapa soh pi ikut putri and yana overnight kann.-.-' sampai kena marah oleh my giant.haha -.-  okay oaky. enuf membebel. so the pictures.

time nak naik bas uitm. first time naik bas uitm tau!

miya je yg take pic with bas ni. almaklum bkn sng nak nek bas ni kan.HAHA

*baju tunang eh miya ?:p

fatin,ema,shaz,omi :)

gelugoq, awie, abid :)

al divine yg mambang sumbang:p

kami berdua ja :(

omi yang comel!

the menu people.

aturcara

comel ngak kami ? HAHA

ai ai kapten ! :)

our papa cany ! alaa why lah mata begitu ?

tudiaa, malam inspirasi ilmu. ceramah di kala dinner okay. lu ada ?

 sekali lagi , buqukk lah kau ni nyah.haha

okay. cukup setakat itu. ohya, tadi kelas gua yang terakhir , habis pukul 12pm tadi. dan gua orang yang err ke enam or ke tujuh keluar dari kelas tuh. ya ya, gua kalahdengan miyah , putri, fna, azlan untuk merebut title orang yang paling last keluar dari kelas terakhir. tapi gua meme saja je tu.haha. eh kauu azlan, suka ha kau. last sem pun muka kau jugak. anyway azlan ,thankyou for the souvenir from Australia giteww. raya kat luaq negara derr. kelas kau maria ! ahaha .

 P/s: giant , get well very soon, do take your medicine, minum banyak air, take good care of yourself. sayang kau oaky :)

its 5.13 am , and i'm still not sleepin'. oh ya, the dinner pictures will be on the next entry :)

literally

assalamualaikum.

how have you guys been ? heh. i miss blogging frankly, but lately memang busy dengan raya nya , nak balik ke KL to merboukland for my finale. oh yeah, i hope its not too late, hihi. SELAMA HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN semua :)) i didn't make an entry for haari raya -.-' tapi sumpah start gua menjejakkan kaki at my hometown, that night, esoknya i have to go to kk, tidying up the house,beraya ofcouse, openhouse-.- then back to merbok satu kerja pun tak siap! like shit ah gak kena buat my speech and study eco in one day. tapi biasa lah tuh, aku mmg stail keja last minute pun. haha. so alhamdulillah, semua tuh dah siap and aku rasa okay lah tapi dan mmg tak lah excellent. for now, tinggal presentation global, law and test bel342 before my final which is on 21th sept.god. its almost end. my life here in merbok( well i really hope so) huhe.cant wait to pursue my studies and tentunya aku berharap akan buat degree in law.like seriously,  i don't have any backup plan besides taking BLS. and i admit that i dont give my best in my last sem here. i wish we have the undo button in life. but talking about wishes , i must say that i'm a lucky person. well even though i always get in an embarrassing situations -.- but yeah, i am considering that i'm still lucky. since i'm in form 4 i want to be a lawyer. and now, i'm in a right place where i can catch my dream. although my spm result xda lah gempak mana, 2minggu sebelum spm baru nak sedar kan-.- and the muet. check result muet aku lah yang paling lambat. takut and   sumpah aku sangka dapat band 3.yela kan dah first attempt, and before muet aku tak study.saja cari pasal kan. sumpah you can ask my sis-.- tapi mmg kat umah tahap kemalasan aku menjadi kuasa empat gitew. yang c azlan pulak sebok tnya aku stdy macam mana.-.- anyway, the thing is that i realized that i never done something that i'm really really into it.like really put 200% efforts. hurm, tengok. wahai manusia manusia yang bertuah,kalau tak bersyukur lagi mmg lah aku taktau nak kata pa kan. ha, contoh yang paling basic lah nak tunjuk kan korang pun lucky, ambik contoh anak anak somalia . they don't have enough food, a good shelter, medical service tapi kita dengan senang ja dapat. siap yang umor 8 tahun pun ada yang pakai iphone 4 lah,the latest xbox lah. aku cukup nggak ngerti mengapa begitu sekali ? hmm, no wonder dari kecik dah terlalu di manjakan. this is not a proper way. yes it is true we as human do have desire and it is not wrong to fulfill your desire tuh tapi biarlah beragak-agak noh.usaha sendiri jika inginkan sesuatu. and the point is that sometimes we forget to have the feeling of gratefulness. nahh, this is also a reminder for myself too okay. saja nak ckp pasal ni. 

so anyway, mlm ni gua kena study for bel342. the right way to answer the paper, yeah people, -.- i still don't  get used to the format. and this friday if i'm not mistaken, is the pre lawrian's dinner. will be held at the park avenue hotel. annd i will not going to follow the theme of the night which is retro raya-.-' and im sure most of my friends don't follow the theme so no need to feel seperti melungkut ditepian gantang sangat lah kan. hahaha. so for now, hey you nebloga ! i do miss you a lot. kau nakal2 disana awas! do behave giant! and do more patient.biasa lah orentasi memang begitu. haha and don't text me lah if you tgh busy, annoying gila perasaan tgu you reply msg.ergh-.-" 

okay till then , bye muggles born.